It's Thurday night and I go home tomorrow.
How can I leave this place.
Did I do enough?
Did I understand the people?
What do I do now?
Will life ever be the same?
This was a mission trip for me but as I get ready to leave I think Haiti was on a mission trip for me. I learned more from the people of Haiti than they could ever learn from me.
I don't want to leave but what happens if I stay?
Will it be too much?
Will I always have in the back of my mind that I can leave this place?
What about them - longing to leave and knowing they cant.
Could I listen to the kids cry day after day at Mother Theresa's orphanage?
Could I handle seeing people in desperate need everyday for water, food, money, medical attention?
Could I watch the pain of parents who can't even send their kids to school?
Would I ever become de-sensitized to it all if I stayed?
I don't want to stay but what happens if I leave?
Will it be too much?
Will I get tired of seeing the waste in the U.S.?
Will I get tired of having everything I need?
My family is alive, healthy, happy, and functioning well. Do they really need me here?
How do I explain to people in the U.S. what I saw, felt, heard, smelled?'
Would people really listen to me and respond to the needs of the Haitian people?
Where would I do the most good for the people?
My body left Haiti but my heart stayed behind.
I'm feeling a little numb and confused about being home so I went to church.
Before mass started I was asking God what it is that He wants from me and praying for help to open my mind to be able to listen.
Well he heard me and I heard Him loud and clear.
The homily reading for the day was Luke chapter 9 verses 57-62
The Cost of Following Jesus57As they were walking along the road, a man said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go."
58Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."
59He said to another man, "Follow me."
But the man replied, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father."
60Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and proclaim the kingdom of God."
61 Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family."
62Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."
So now I say to you Jeff & Alyn - The cherry bomb has just exploded!
God Bless Haiti